Frustrated.

One of the main points of having this operation is so that I don’t have Ulcerative Colitis. So can someone please tell me why for the past week I have been in an obscene amount of pain with symptoms similar to having UC?

It sucks.
Tuesday was intense, I was in so much pain I was crying on the tube home from work. Wednesday not as bad, yesterday really bad, coupled with chills and aches. My hot water bottle has been attached to me and I’ve been dozing when I can as the pain makes it hard to drift off.
The boy has been lovely, supplying me with fluids, giving me hot water bottles and cuddles.
I’ve been trying to see everything as small hurdles, if I get through this one obstacle, its just something less to deal with. However its getting increasingly difficult to maintain this mentality.
I can’t even begin to type my frustration with it all, I am also acutely aware I am starting to sound very “woe is me”.
I suppose I just thought that after having all these ops I wouldn’t have as many problems as I am at the moment.
I’ve spent far too long being held back by my illness I just thought it would be over by now.
Alas, this is a struggle I will get through just like all the others, I just needed to vent a little bit.

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