What’s crackalackin’ peeps?
Till about ten minutes ago I was sitting on my sofa reading a very lovely book called “The Happiness Project” by Gretchen Rubin
Its about a lady who takes a year out to find out what makes her happy. She dedicates a month to a specific theme and explores it. I’m really enjoying it so far and she has a chapter about a blog she launches. I’m sitting there reading and I think “Why the hell am I not updating my blog?”
I love blogging but ever since I’ve come to Australia for some reason the posts just aren’t happening and I need to change it.
What’s going on in my life?
Well, a few days ago I purchased my first car!!!
Then I crashed it.
Yes. Slow clap for Stephanie.
It was raining heavily, I went to turn right and SMACK there was a car in the side of me.
I didn’t want to tell any one because quite frankly, I was damn embarrassed. Who does that?! Quite a few people it seems from some stories people have been telling me.
Am I okay? Thank God yes, I have a cracked sternum and a bruised ego but all is well with me.
What has struck me from this experience is a) how many amazing people I have in my life who rushed to support me and b) my lack of care for myself.
When the car hit me I turned off the ignition and sat there. All I could think was “Oh my God. My Car. Oh man, I’ve just spent a shit load of money on this, oh crap I can’t believe I’ve crashed my car people are going to think I’m so stupid.”
Steph, are you serious?
Haha yes its completely pretentious to talk to myself in my blog post but hey.
Did I think “Am I okay?”
No. I thought about everything but me.
When I called my Granddad I was so nervous to tell him because he lent some of the money for my car. The first thing he said was are you okay, once I confirmed that I was okay he said “Then that’s all that matters. A car can be replaced. You can’t”
How could I have placed a piece of metal over my own life and well being? Talk about a MASSIVE wake up call.
So that my friends is what is happening at the moment. I have a lot of things to sort out such as what I’m going to do about my regional work because I can’t get there any more. Where I am going to go and how long I’m going to stay in the country.
For the time being I am just resting because life has a funny way of unfolding in which ever direction it chooses. I am sure that in time the path I need to take will become clear but for now I’m just sitting on the sofa watching plenty of Grey’s Anatomy, with lots of tea.
Which could actually be slightly detrimental to my health, what with all the emotionally intense scenes in that series, do you know how hard it is to cry with a cracked sternum? Very hard is the answer.