Keep on going

Motivation.

Noun
The reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way.
The general desire or willingness of someone to do something.

What to do when this magical word evades you? I wish I had the answer. I’ve been a bit poorly recently, migraines, tummy pains and this weird thing where my arms and legs keep going numb/pins and needles.

A visit to the doctor is most definitely needed but when you’re a traveller with no stable address it can be a little tricky.

I’m putting it off for the moment because thankfully it’s not urgent as the headaches are intermittent and the tummy pains are rare. It can wait till I’m in Sydney and a little more settled.

On the subject of doctors, I now have to get to grips with a different health care system. I never bitched about the NHS because, and even though I’ve had to wait for appointments and they are never, EVER on time, I didn’t have to pay for my operations and I don’t have to pay for my hospital/GP visits.

In Australia its a different kettle of fish. You pay for your doctor appointments and then, if you receive Medicare, which I do thankfully, you get a portion of what you paid back.

As you can imagine it is quite costly for someone with a chronic illness who repeatedly needs to go to the doctor. I still need to clarify with my travel insurance, what they cover and all that jazz.

It’s insane to think about how I was exactly a year ago. I recently read something that I had written about how badly my pouch was flaring and to think that now, even though things aren’t perfect, I’m still able to live my life. I’m running, I have more energy, I’m only up once or twice a night opposed to the three or four I’m used to, I don’t leak at night (too much info I know, and yes, it can happen) I’m able to tolerate more foods and I’m down from 15 trips to the bathroom to 6/8.

Mind you, these are good days. I get occasional bad ones where I’m run down, will go to the bathroom heaps and, like I said above, have no motivation to lift a finger. I just need to get the headaches and bleeding under control because as amazing that this all is, it really isn’t right to continue to bleed out of your bum. (again, too much info but hey, this is a blog about Inflammatory Bowel Disease!)

I will keep you posted on how the Medicare system works and what I have to go through , just in case any of you lovely people decide to come out to Australia.

If you’ve got any questions, pop me an email or write a comment below. Would love to hear from you.

Take care, stay strong and keep smiling.

2 Comments

  1. Belinda   •  

    I hear you! You’re definitely not alone in feeling like this. (sometimes it helps hearing this, other times….not so much).
    I came accross your site and just had to pop in and say hi.
    I admire that you have kept your positive attitude and that you are able to travel!
    It’s totally normal to go through ups & downs, especially what we go through living with IBD. I have crohn’s and even though things are going relatively well at this point, I’m hitting a low emotional point (why?? I ask myself). Reading your blog now just reminded me that we have lots to be proud of. Things we achieved despite the odds. Despite pain. Despite IBD. Even though we didn’t have a choice. Atleast we can be proud of the fact that we are stronger and pushing through?

    • Stephanie White   •  

      Hi Belinda, Thank you so much for popping in and saying hi, it’s nice to hear from you 🙂
      Thank you for your kind words and I hope that you get over your emotional low point. It sucks sometimes aye? IBD can be such a roller coaster of a ride. How long have you had Crohn’s for?
      I personally believe people with IBD are strong mofo’s. We put up with so much and half the time people don’t even realise. We push through the bad stuff with a smile on our faces so its natural sometimes to let that slip.
      Let me know how you get on and if you need a chat 🙂

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