Why do I blog?

It’s a good question. Why do I share my most intimate and private details on the internet for all to see?

I was mulling it over, on the sacred throne, and I was trying to figure out why I write.

Initially I did it because I found the process quite cathartic. If you look back at some of my previous posts, there’s a few rants, the “Why me?” posts because it was the easiest way to get out the emotions that I was feeling without having to burden them onto someone else.

The more I started to blog, the posts started to evolve from rants to my experiences. I realised that I could help people by writing what I was going through. People don’t tend to talk about having a bowel disease, especially at my age (I’m now 24, was diagnosed at 19 in case you were wondering) because it’s an embarrassing disease.

I write about my experiences, so that people with IBD realise that there are others that go through some really tough difficult situations, but more importantly they come out on the other side.

One thing I also want to make clear, I don’t write my posts because I believe that what I have done, you should do too.

IBD is different for everyone, what works for me, might not work for you. I write them so that you can go away and have a think about it. Maybe you’ll try something that I have found out, maybe you won’t and that’s okay. I just want you to think a little differently because it could help to find something that works for you.

I also write for those who have no idea what it’s like to live with IBD. I bare all so that people who don’t understand can begin to grasp what it is like living with this disease. Knowledge is power. The more people that know about this, the more awareness we spread, the closer we become to understanding this disease and ultimately finding a cure.

So why do you blog? Why do you read other blogs? Are there any favourites that you’d like to recommend for others to check out?

Is it too much?

Do I share too much of myself on this blog?

This thought has been plaguing me recently, as I do share a lot of intimate, personal details on here. Not only do I share tips and advice on how I cope with IBD, but I also have insights into what I am up to such as my travels and my own personal opinions and thoughts.

Is it just too much?

Should I be leaving some mystery to myself instead of laying my soul bare for all on the world wide web to see?

I could just be a blog that documents my journey with IBD. But to be honest, that isn’t who I am. If you know me personally, you would know that I am a pretty open and I talk. A LOT.

In my report cards when I was younger, the same comments kept coming up again and again.

“Stephanie is a delightful, intelligent girl who could achieve so much more if she stopped talking in class”

Repeatedly my mum was told what a great student I was, if only I could learn when to shut my mouth!

I can’t help it; I just love to talk to people. Sometimes, I hear myself in a conversation and there’s a voice in the back of my head going:

“Steph, you’ve been talking for a long time now, are you getting to the point? I think the other person has zoned out. Stephanie, STOP TALKING”

I don’t know what it is, but I really enjoy talking to people and finding out about them, what they’re like as person, how they like to spend their time. Maybe it’s because I like to find out so much information about people that I am so open. Who knows, but I am starting to wonder if I should rein it back a little bit. Keep a bit of myself personal; only keep the blog completely focused on IBD.

Then I think, no. Why should I? Why should I conform myself to all the other blogs out there. I want you all to see the good the bad and the ugly, and the only way you’ll see that is through the life I lead.

I like to talk and coincidently, I like to write. I really enjoy it and I may not be the best writer or the most grammatically correct, but I love sitting here and telling you all how I cope with having Inflammatory Bowel Disease, thinking of posts to write and what advice or stories I can tell you next. If there are any of you reading my blog who enjoy it, or even better take something away from my posts then I’m obviously on the right track.

I will continue to blah on at you guys, typing merrily away and you’ll be scrolling through, your eyes will glaze over and you’ll say, “Come on Steph, get to the point!”

Before I go, I was trolling the internet for other IBD blogs and found a great blog by Stephen Dempster. He’s got some great posts on there and some awesome links to other pages such as this bad boy.

http://www.meandibd.org/

It’s a site for young people living with IBD and they are currently campaigning for people to share their stories.

So, if you have IBD and are willing to share, you know what to do, click on the link above, check it out and send in a video.

You know yours truly will be, as ever trying to spread awareness.